stay free my misery!

2008-03-25T13:55:00.002+08:00

hi people!

please vote my best friend, Jeremy, on the Most Kissable Guy

http://kissableguy.mediacorptv.sg/contestant01.php?id=374#

i guess most of you know him through me in a way or another

and i know that some girls are mesmerised by him

maybe guys also (LOL)

so, cast your vote for him once a day, 5 stars please

and strictly no sabotage please!

thanks a million!

2008-03-11T22:14:00.003+08:00

the first time i had much fun while working
even the staffs working there are funny
zac, josephine, gazel, alan, alex and yours truly
we rocked the whole place!
cause we hit the target on sunday hahaha!

and after work we went for mango-tango!
woohoo zac's and my favourite
and its totally deliciousssssssss!

zac and i
josephine and i
zac and josephine

total coincidence

before i went out for work, it was like dizzling

so i wanna take a bus to the interchange

i was wondering will i meet lionel "accidentally"

AND I REALLY DID! LOL

we were like totally opposites

he wore totally black with white AX belt

and i wore totally white with black AX belt

damn funny.

well, we are brothers and i love you:))

okay i know what youre thinking... yes i did
and my good-boy hair cut! stupid VGA camara

2008-03-08T22:27:00.003+08:00

quite disappointed that milan lost to arsenal
i was looking forward for a final against milan
FOR REVENGE AND FOR WHAT WE DESERVED
but great job arsenal.
and did you saw that? Torres's GOD-LIKE!

handphone megastore was a real blast!
really have alotttt of phones around
and esp motorola antiques that i cant sell
cant be bothered by the sales there
but the people there are loves! damn funny

ps: 3rd day standing full day
my legs are jello-like!
and i need some good beauty sleep
tmr is last day of work!

2008-03-07T22:11:00.003+08:00

so people were asking me
what pisses me off easiest?
one word - STUPIDITY
i loathe stupid people seriously
especially bimbos

saw some clips on bungee jumping
shit! i so wanna do it too

working for 4 consecutive days is fucked up
2 days at oub starhub is dumb
a work place that have no customers
and ive been rather selling for other brands
but well, still managed to sell moto
cant believe it i didnt even have to try selling it
thank god it closes at 730
all in all, starhub still rocks! (fuck m1)

2008-03-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

2008-03-03T11:58:00.001+08:00

2008-02-26T11:53:00.003+08:00

hello people
im currently looking for interested parties
for model casting
mainly for RedKen/Loreal roadshows
so if youre interested
tag me, msn me, sms me, call me.
with modelling experience preferred.

ps: you know the requirements
no tom, dick and harry please.
yes im serious about this, jokes aside.

2008-02-25T22:12:00.002+08:00

Liverpool! where are the likes of Mascherano and Jamie Carragher?

damn! what a clinical striker Torres is.
i loveeeee it so much seriously
finally a striker to take over micheal owen
a speed demon that bushes off defenders
and that superb touch in front of goals
this is what i call, WORLD CLASS!
but hes taking over the shine of Gerrard
oh well, Gerrard is still so important thou
jus look at the excellent free kick he took
it took middlesbrough keeper to fully stretch
and that visionary through pass to Torres
Liverpool certainly miss Carragher at the heart
conceding stupid goals
and reflects how dumb reina is.
but well, Torres was terrific!
debut season with 2 hat-tricks now
this could the start of something amazing

and side track about Arsenal
i really would like to send Taylor to JAIL
BAN HIM OUT OF SOCCER FROM LIFE MAN
Eduardo almost lost his foot and amputation!
what the hell is this man
this is the worst injury for this season!
if you think youre strong
GO BREAK CRISTIANO'S LEGS
i bet a lot of fans would thank you
but well, im jus kidding
i would lose plently of good soccer entertainment
yes ronaldo is a football genius
and i supported him before he was famous
wayyy before he joined manchesterunited
but after since... forget it.

okay lets not talk about soccer
i know it bores if youre not a fan
so whats up with me now?
i jus had my BPHARM exam
which i think i kinda screwed it up
so fine, i have to move on
but why i screw up when i memorised so hard?
partly, 20% was due to this morning
i went out 2 hours before the paper
thinking that i would reach school early
but whatthef! THE BUS BROKE DOWN
20 years of life and this is my first time
AT THE DAY I HAVE EXAMS!?
tell me am i heng or sway
heng that i went out early and wasnt late in the end
sway that i went out early and took the bus!?
GRRR!
4 more days to holidays anyway!

2008-02-22T20:43:00.003+08:00

a week from today will be the start of...
HOLIDAYS!
i've got a lot of things to do
but i lost my motivation on my focus
come on bring it back!
and i seriously need accompany
we can go gym
we can go jogging
we can go sun bathing
we can go swimming
we can go for any sports!
we can go for shopping
we can go explore the whole singapore
we can go dating
we can go clubbing
we can go pubbing
we can go watch soccer
we can go play soccer
we can go anywhere you suggest!
if youre keen in hanging out with terencepoh
please kindly volunteer yourself!
your help is very much appreciated!

i believe if time passes
everything turns into beauty
if the rain stops
tears clean the scars of memory away
everything starts wearing fresh colours
every sound begins playing a heartful melody
jealously embellishes a page of epic
desire is embraced in a dream
but my mind is still in chaos and...

2008-02-20T23:33:00.002+08:00

okay im super high today

how can i not be?

not only that term-test are over

but the fact that Liverpool beat Inter

curse and swear how lousy we can be

but we still beat INTER MILAN 2-0

like hello. Inter is Seria A's champion

currently leading the league with 11 points

and they havent lost a match till then

yes i know they are down to 10 men

but they were 9 men behind ball as well

cry it luck or whatever you want

if its luck then ManU must be the most lucky ever

conclusion - the Reds totally deserved to win

hail the Reds! You''ll Never Walk Alone!

okay despite the 'happiness' i had received

i am having depression can!

feed me some St. John's Worts

bad hair days

pimples

ulcers

lost weight

how can i not be depressed!?

tomorrow back to weight gaining and gym!

2008-02-19T17:47:00.003+08:00

Tonight's the night.

Champions League Knockout stage

Liverpool VS Inter Milan

totally not in the mood to study PIA

how i wish i could watch this

its not you can to watch this every time

the last time Liverpool met Inter was decades back

i know Liverpool is struggling with their form

but im still so gonna hang my jersey out

and wear one them to sleep!

(maybe i should wear all 3 together!)

COME ON YOU REDS!

give us hope, make us dream. YNWA!

and my Liverpool Champions League series soccer ball!

so i've said, we have more than fate

if not i wouldnt meet you

times and times again, today.

im sorry that im a coward

i dont know why either

but geminis are afraid of rejections

once bitten, twice shy

and i was really so shyyy

i know we'll meet again - i believe.

2008-02-17T12:06:00.004+08:00

FA Cup: Liverpool 1 - 2 Barnsley

atrocious. utterly disappointed.
when was the last time the results
made the Anfield Faithfuls proud?
we cant even raise our chins up now
looking on the players on paper
we are actually good, infact great.
but what kind of results are produced?
i dont get it, i seriously dont.
how can a top class league lose over a league one strugglers?
to make things worse, we lost at home ground
give us hope, make us dream

walk on, through the wind
walk on, through the rain
though your dreams be tossed and blown
walk on, walk on
with hopes in your heart
and you'll never walk alone
You'll Never Walk Alone

a match never to be forgotten
a match that made us proud
a match that gives us pride
Champions League Final 2005
AC Milan VS Liverpool

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3p-rgOOZqg

ps: i know im living in history lol.

2008-02-15T22:36:00.003+08:00

okay i really love myself, A LOT.
according to the height.
hello brothers!
the funniest assholes
eugene, shengyoung and clemmy
and my all black day after the all white day.

the last PIA lab session. Dr Tian cant get bothered by me LOL.
ah yes, my first time taking a photo with lab coat actually. ALLY my brudder yo! sup.

okay my hair looks like some mushroom. HAH!

2008-02-15T22:15:00.003+08:00

i know i lack of something important
but i dont know what is it
luck, you call it perhaps
never seems to be at my side

why does things are always against my wish
when im ready, shes not within my sight
and always caught off guard in the end
or am i giving myself excuses?
why do it pumps harder and faster
till everybody can hear it
only when you appear in front of me
but once bitten, twice shy
how do i dare to ask it another time?

but i know its only right to fight for something
rather than waiting for nothing
you know i jus need this one chance
not only to prove myself, but yourself

girls always say that guys are superficial
true, or not. i rather derfer
i think both sexs are exactly same
girls, tell me will you give a guy your no. if hes ugly
think. and answer honestly
so do guys only ask the girl that caught his eyes
whats wrong?
you dont expect us to find someone who dont like right
like it or not, looks make the impression
especially the first one.

2008-02-14T19:05:00.003+08:00

hello world im back to blog
had been rather lazy to blog
but im totally so bored but to do this now
anyway school have been torturing
i've jus submitted ALL projects today
and finished with all the presentations
and guess what?
next week's term test
followed by exams after 2 papers
tell me how good life can get?

imma total depressed today
second time in my life and got rejected
however, this is not the end
im not giving up so soon
i know we've got more than fate.
this is not the end, definitely not.

alright we've been taking photos lately
especially ITAS canteen sucky food
you can take a look at SITI'S blog if you're interested
and like always, stupid self pic of myself.
vain. what more can i say?

testing my new phone. one word, ZAI!

the wonders of Xenon Flash and 5.0MP (i resized it)

featuring FATHAPPYFAMILY!

i hate valentines day
why am i always single during this day
i swear i never celebrate this day before
20 years of life, what a shame.
not the 21st too, please...
seeing everybody receiving gifts,
i have some too, however
its from CITIBANK!

THE CITIBANK PARAGON PLATINUM CARD

THE CITIBANK CLEAR PLATINUM

i love the clear platinum most

because it allows me... free entries to clubs

what clubs? of course ALL the famous ones you know

including my favourite Zouk, Phuture too.

im not an idiot who sign cards for nothing

not only free entries, get 1-for-1 deals too.

okay jus nice holidays are coming.

it's about time!

2008-02-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

every chinese new year is the best day
because within a few minutes
and a few sentence, you earn some money
like what dad said
"where to get this pay?"
haha. how true.

and every chinese new year
is a time to gain some weight
like seriously, you eat the whole day
morning eat, go house visits also eat
then they cook, and then steamboat
and apparently i have abalone-phobia now
i wonder how many abalones i ate within 24hrs
feel like vomit them out
whats more? THAT ARE LEFTOVERS OF THEM
wahlao 6 cans of them can.
im not going to eat them anymore!

2008-02-06T15:54:00.000+08:00

hi world, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
every time of this year, imma quite bored actually
things happened the same every year without fail
so its like rewinding a viedo and play it again
and i've decided to work on the weekends
its VIVO STARHUB MAN! WOOHOOOO!
it means... SALES! and it also means... MONEY!
1.5X of normal pay, which idiot dont want!

alright so its my time to change a phone too
but i really got no idea what to change
i've picked some choices from various brands
so why not you guys pick for me?

First: Song Ericsson W960
whats good about this phone?
-of course, the fucking music player
-8GB shared memory
-Radio with RDS
-3.15MP camara
-Lasting battery
-and Wi-Fi (WOOHOO)

and whats so bad about it then?
-Ugly design, looks like a ipod
-FAT
-Not a dual camara for my narcistic acts
-The TFT touchscreen is stupid

Second: Motorola RAZR V9
i'll tell you whats so good about it
-Scratch resistance screen
-Slim, 13.4mm only
-Dual camara, 2MP but good clarity and zoom
-Durable, im serious.
-Cool haptic keys on the screen
-and a thing other phones dont have: CRYSTAL TALK
(crystalk talk is external noise reduction of the one talking to you)

the drawbacks?
-MP3 not as good as SE's (obviously)
-No Radio function
-No camara flash

Samsung G800:

i'd been a samsung user for more than 3 years
and i've always like their designs
so... whats so cool about samsung G800?
-nice design, fat however.
-5MP camara (dont know dual cam or not)
-XENON FLASH!
-FM Radio

the boos about it
-cannot multi task!
-mp3 not as good as SE's
-Short battery life-span

i went through need analysis and found out...
NONE THE PHONES MEET ALL OF MY NEEDS!
do you have any recommendations?

2008-02-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

when you walk through a storm...
hold your head up high...
and dont be afraid of the dark...
at the end of the storm...
theres a golden sky...
and the sweet silver song of the dark...

WALK ON THROUGH THE WIND
WALK ON THROUGH THE RAIN
THOUGH YOUR DREAMS BE TOSSED AND BLOWN...
WALK ON
WALK ON
WITH HOPE IN YOUR HEART
AND YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE
YOU'LL NEVER WALKKKKK ALONE

2008-02-04T12:18:00.000+08:00

THINGS TO GET:

(1) AX shirt and denim jeans
-if anybody reading my blog have discounts for AX... PLEASE TELL ME!

(2) Gucci wallet
-if anybody reading my blog have discounts for other brands like LV, PLEASE TELL ME TOO!

(3) Mobile (V9?)
-i dont need help in mobiles... like duh!

(4) Shoes (white in particular)
-any recommendations? if anybody reading this have discounts for ZARA, PLEASE TELL THREE!

PLEASE DO TELL ME IF YOU HAVE ANY DISCOUNTS FOR ANY LABELS/BRANDS
THANK YOU!

2008-02-03T09:21:00.000+08:00

if life's like a battery
mine's a energiser

never say die.

2008-01-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

in life people either
(1) die for something
or
(2) live for nothing

so which would you choose?

2008-01-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

10 things you should never say to a guy:

1) "That looks cute."For the most part, men hate cute. We don't want to hear about it, we don't want to see it, and we sure as hell don't want to be it. If we come down stairs after getting dressed and you tell us we look cute, there's a 100 percent chance we're changing. We're supposed to be your protector, your rock, and cute does not fit into that picture.

2) "We need to talk." These four words shut off a man's brain faster than long division. When men hear you say that they immediately go into flight mode. And anything they can do to get out of this conversation—and better yet, your apartment—they will. There are plenty of other ways to approach a delicate conversation, and getting us in a place where we feel comfortable is a good start.

3) "It's just a game." Actually, it's not just a game. Sports are a major part of our lives and the outcome has as much to do with our mood as just about anything else. Is it fair? No. Is it right? No. Is it immature? Maybe. But it's life. Sometimes we just care too much. We understand that it doesn't make sense, but you should be happy that we're that passionate about something. Telling us that "it's just a game" is like us telling you that Oprah's just a talk show host.

4) "Nothing's wrong." Please don't tell us nothing's wrong. The look on your face could make the toughest guy on the planet weep like a third-grade girl and your arms are crossed so tight you might explode. We're not mind readers; tell us what's going on. And don't make us guess because—believe me—you won't like what we come up with.

5) "I sound like my mom." The mere fact that you might turn into your mom someday scares the hell out of us. Don't say it, even in jest—it's not funny. We actually believe (and pray) that the saying "every woman ends up looking like their mother" is an old wives' tale. If we didn't, no one would ever get married.

6) "I just want to be friends." No you don't. You just want us to stop calling you. This is a lot like pulling off a band-aid. Do it quick—don't prolong the agony. Most of us take "I just want to be friends" as "There's still a chance," so if there isn't just make it a clean break and move on. Everyone will be much better because of it.

7) "Size doesn't matter." Don't lie to us. We know it does, and we're doing our best to make up for it in other ways. It's best just to not say anything at all.

8) "What are you wearing?"We're wearing whatever's clean or whatever you tell us to. We don't plan out our wardrobe days in advance, but we do actually try and look presentable. It may not work a lot of the time, but we do give it a shot. Giving us direction is completely encouraged though, so go ahead and suggest … nicely.

9) "Do you think she's pretty?" Of course we do, our standards are much lower than yours. But just because we check her out doesn't mean we think any less of you. We try to be as discreet as possible, but for the most part, we can't help it. It's in our DNA. When an attractive woman walks by, it's best to just pretend nothing happened.

10) "Which outfit do you like better?" I'm going to be honest here—90 percent of the guys out there are not going to tell you which outfit they like better: They're going to try to pick the one you like better and not get into a holy war when the babysitter is due any minute. To us, you always look good. Getting a couple cocktails and spending as much time as we can without the kids is our ultimate goal for a rare night out.

10 things you should never say to a girl:

1) "What did you do to your hair?"Unless we've cut our own hair—this is not common—someone else did something to our hair. It wasn't us. And most likely we've gone to a lot of trouble and expense for it. "I like your new haircut" is infinitely better, and shows you're paying attention. It's also far superior to the generic "You look different," which tells us you're as clueless as ever.

2) "They both look the same to me."We understand you care a lot less than we do about the outfits or the registry dishware we're asking you to compare. But they can't possibly look exactly the same, can they? Give us something. Anything. Mentally roll the dice and pick one, so we don't worry about your vision—or worse, that you don't care.

3) "Relax."A kissing cousin to "Don't get so worked up," this generally creates the exact opposite effect you're shooting for. When you say "Relax," what we hear is that you think that we're being irrational over nothing, and this makes us do anything but relax.

4) "I've got it all under control."Ha! Famous last words. Refrain from using them if you don't want us to take fiendish delight in your getting lost because you won't stop for directions (if we're late, there will be fiendish fuming), or because you're missing a piece to your flat-screen television because you said you didn't need to read the assembly instructions.

5) "You're not one of those feminists, are you?"Yikes. Chivalry may be nearly dead, but saying this will drive the last spear through its heart. Feminist or not, a woman is likely to be offended by the question. Just be yourself. Be kind, open the door, offer to pay, and go from there. We can choose to accept or share in your generosity.

6) "When are you due?"Take one second to imagine a woman turning to you and responding, "I'm not pregnant," or "I had the baby six months ago," and you'll understand why you should eradicate this question from your vocabulary. In one nanosecond, innocent—even considerate—curiosity can turn to deadly, if unintentional, offense. And there's just no way to recover from this one.

7) "You're being emotional."In the heat of the moment this may be true. But unless you want your partner to become more emotional or get angry, you're better off keeping this observation and its off-limits follow-up question—"Is it that time of month?"—to yourself.

8) "You're acting just like your mother/my mother/my ex-girlfriend."All three are problematic. An ex should be mentioned sparingly, and never in comparison. Why would we want to remind you of a person you broke up with? And come to mention it, why are you thinking about her? You see the slippery slope. Conjuring an image of our mother or your mother can be equally grating. We want you to treat us as individuals and not as mere products of your (or our) upbringing.

9) "You complete me."We've seen "Jerry Maguire" and most other romantic comedies far more often than you, and while we may (or may not) like cheesy movie lines, they usually fail in real life. We understand that the possibility of romance makes inexplicable things come out of a man's—and sometimes a woman's—mouth, but keep the compliments real and honest and sincere and say you love someone when you mean it.

10) "Do you really think you should be eating that?"Yes. She should be eating it. Even if she told you she's given it up.

true? to some extent i believe
but who cares
we probably forget after we read it

okay and so i dragged myself to the SR meeting
but turns out i enjoyed it? a little actually
at the same time worrying for unfinished work
and the fact that i skipped dinner today :(

oh well but something made my day
i bought my clinique facial products, like finally
and was given a detailed product spec
which i expected highly for it
like hello im also a sales rep
you better give me quality service
and please know that im paying GST
so the sales rep at TANGS was excellent
detail explaination, good rapport, great smile
everything was excellent
i bought eventually was because of her service
not only the product
everywhere gonna sell the same thing, like duh
was also given a free make up demo
and freebies like makeup, cleaniser bla bla
damn good, praisal for her!

talking about services
compasspoint clinique suck big time
i stood there for 30mins
and she haven close the sales from the another customer!
LOUSY LAH YOU, GO FOR SALES TRAINING!
you fucking wasted my precious 30mins in life
i swear i'll never go back there again

okay finally the weekends are near
clear my IPT interview
clear my RETAIL project
clear my PIA project
everything's cool, CELEBRATE TMR!
and imma not working again!
and mel's gonna be back tomorrow
sunday study BPHARM!
oh great, im so packed.
and i haven finish this week
next week's schedule for myself is out!
what a busy life. GRRR.

2008-01-23T23:44:00.001+08:00

meetings, meetings, and still meetings
how come meetings never end?
retail meeting
IPT meeting
PIA meeting
now what? MOTOROLA SR MEETING!
what on earth is going wrong?

but i dont know why am i so happy everyday
it seems like i enjoy being busy
and i dont even have time for dating seriously
everything around me appears to be only work
lectures, tutorials, projects, assignments, meetings, work
perfection seems to get closer
so love please stay away from me, at least for now
cause im enjoying, and lovin' it
i dont need love, all i need most now is SLEEP!
and more sports
and more tanning
and more gym sessions
and more friends!
and more food!
who needs love when theres food!
and more girls (yes im desperate that i lowered my standard)

2008-01-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

after 19years and 9months of life
i finally know how to define busy
am really busy, sooo busy
that i dont have ample sleep
that i need coffee so much everyday
to keep this energy level
to keep me awake during lectures
i love this busy life, lovin' it
but jus give me more sleep, please?

exams timetable is finally out
last paper would be 27feb!
you know i cant wait, i cant wait
cant wait for it to be overrr!
no supp paper please!
i promise to try my very best
say hello to my best pal, coffee.

oh!
im into you
and girl
noone else would do
cause with every kiss and every hug
you make me, fall in love
and now i know i can be the only one,
i bet its heart's all over the world tonight,
with the love of they life, who feel..
what i feel when im..
with you, with you, with you, with you, with you
girl
with you, with you, with you, with you, with you...

2008-01-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

look
if you had
one shot
or one opportunity
to seize everything you ever wanted
in one moment
would you capture it
or jus let it slip?
Eminem

so i have got this one opportunity
that i had been asking for
after much serious considerations
i think i'll take it.
opportunities doesnt always come

2008-01-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

i am...
STRESS!
STRESS!
STRESS!
STRESS!
STRESS!

6 subjects to handle
they told us to juggle
but we end up struggle
whats wrong with the world?

never ending projects
endless quizzes
and the depressing results
working mounts up the level
with the stupid sales i always get
i need St. John Worts
or whatever anti-depressant
its coming to an end, soon...

im sorry if i offended you these days
in a way or another
or i didnt say hi to you
or i didnt smile to you
jus too busy, too busy, too busy.

if im on the verge of giving up
somebody please come to rescue me

2008-01-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

one word - fatigue.
im tired, but not near to breaking down
no matter what i'll still fight
fight for this goal, fight for this dream

lets see how long more can i hold on
holding on, even if i feel like letting go.
its getting near, nearer day by day.
im never giving up.
nothing you could say can stop me

2008-01-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

how does it feel
to be
different from me
are we the same
how does it feel
to be
different from me
are we the same
how does it feel

2008-01-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

okay jus when i told ferlicia that
"it's okay to have pimples lah!"
and the following day - karma
i've got additional of 5 lesions on my face
like WHATTHEFUCK MAN!
how to go out with that face?
and im buying back my CLINIQUE
i need you baby
you're the only one who understands
only you're strong enough to help
ohhh clinique, here i come!

2008-01-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
STEVEN POH!
(he's my dad actually)

okay this is going out to my dad
although i know he'll never read this
but im jus gonna say
i love you so much
and you're the best dad in the world
the number one dad
although at times you irritate me
or rather should i say you always do
your stupid jokes never fail to make me laugh
you never ask what im doing
because you trust me
and im gonna repay this strong faith
thank you dad, thank you.

and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
LAU SWEE SHIONG!
(also known as RuiXiang)

hi buddy, you're already 20
but stop showing off that you're older
it's nothing to be SO proud of haha
im sorry that i didnt went the celebration
but you know that it wasnt what i wanted
you knew i was the most steady person ever
so it was really against my wish
however, theres always next year
and i'll never forget the times we had together
since secondary 3 we sit beside each other
and ever since we're always together till sec5
the silly things that we did together
eating in class, laughing at people
singing so badly that irritates farah
and we're gay enough to go out together
but laughter seems endless with you around
definitely one of my best friend
definitely the member of E-GAY!
but please stop dreaming being eminem
you're the cause of weiliang's headaches

2008-01-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
KENNY GOH!

im jus glad that i spend a little time with you today
though it might jus be a lunch
sorry that i didnt have the time to celebrate your day
but its the thought that counts
okay im jus trying to give excuses HAHA
alright you're the first to turn 20 among us
hope your counting never ends
and please stop lying everyday!
oh well, thanks for your ride to school anyway

2008-01-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

i was told when the weather is cold
you'll start thinking about memories
is it true? cause i certainly do.
i thought i have forgotten you for good
but never that i thought that
you still have that special place,
that special place, in my heart.
dig my heart out, stab my heart
i dont wanna feel this pain
i would rather be heartless
than to fall in love once again

why are you the one who build me up
but also the one who tear me down?
why?
you owe me a explaination
that i believe i'll never get
goodbye my love, goodbye.

2008-01-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

one word to describe now? TIRED.
im near to burn off. i need sleep now
today wasnt as fun as yesterday
i dont know why and i wonder why
but roadshow is certainly a good experience
with the people around
bytheway im promoting for motorola
so if anybody of you are interested
please feel free to approach me
ps: motorola is not lousy
my 2.0mp camara owned lots of other phones
especially when they are 5.0mp
dont believe it? i'll show you.

i dont know why im still missing you
its almost half a year
but you still remain in my heart
i dont want to but you're jus like a leech
sticking so hard on my heart
and i dreamt about you again
i dont remember what was it about
but it certainly was the memories we had
i miss you, i love you
so please stop haunting me...

perhaps the lot of fate
only let me meet
only let us love
for this season of autumn

2008-01-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

alright so its my first time doing a roadshow
its cool because its at compasspoint!
and its lovely, lively, jus so good
Samsung, SonyE, Nokia, LG and Motorola
arch-rivals but loving promoters hahaha
Willie, Laura, Janice, Valerie respectively
plus the funny mio-mail promoter Kaixiang
not forgetting the 2 MioTV promoters
Bingyan and ___ sorry i suck at chinese names
time past SOOO quickly today
way better off than tuesday at parkway
omg i love working now and i'll miss it
cause tomorrow's the last day!

although i sold only 2 V9
im supposed to have sold a V8 and V3xx actually
but they're coming tomorrow anyway
come on i can make it 5, or 10!
i need to sell for commission! $$$

and i thank the people who accompanied me
thanks hongswee for lunch
thanks weiliang, yuanyuan, kenny and guoxiong for dinner
couldnt have wished for more!

2008-01-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

hi world im back once again
have been real busy
cant even get some decent sleep
im jus doing a small post
and i'll be back to the bed again
i seriously need to study hard
mid-sem exams i did like shit
one of the worst i ever received

alright so its 2008 already
and its the first time i have set resolutions
in the past i thought it was utterly rubbish
but come to think about it
its damn important
so as to see what you've acheived at the end
and my resolutions are...
SECRETS.

this last day of the year i spent some time pondering
about what i have done throughout
i actually realised i have nothing significant
but only the fact that i've got my heart broken once again
only to learn a lesson
that perfection doesnt comes with love
and certainly nobody is indispensable
NO? CONVINCE ME.
okay other than gaining more than 25 pounds this year
nothing seems significant enough
gained some friends, lost some friends
this is life isnt it, part and parcels.
goodbye 2007, goodbye the old terencepoh

and im fully booked till the end of april
so this year will be full of events
lets jus hope it will be a happening
and definitely a fruitful one

2007-12-28T23:09:00.001+08:00

EMO.

set free my misery
how are you anzeal?

2007-12-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

till the day im old enough
till the day im mature enough
till the day im 75kg
till the day im loaded
till the day i had all the fun
till the day i can piggyback you
till the day i drive
till the day i finish my NS
till the day i finish my education
till the day perfection exists
till the day i met you
will be the day i fall in love again

for now, lets talk about dreams
i have a dream
in fact, plenty of them
i'd rather not live
if my life is without dreams
and to live is to fulfill the dreams
im on my way, on my way

everyday i learn a life lesson
and perfection doesnt comes with love

2007-12-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

hello world im back
dont ask me where i've been
cause i cant remember a thing
at times boringgg
at times highhh till i dont recognise myself
i've been meeting my friends a lot
been laughing a lot
i dont wanna remember whats temasekpoly
neither do i want to know whats biomedscience
and i haven enjoy myself so much
meeting weiliang everyday is a joy
i love you so much! hahahaha

it's the season to be jolly
sha la la la sha la la la~

and tmr's back to normal dull life
the first thing to be resumed?
my gym sessions and heavy meals!
i think i lost some weight when i was sick
who cares i can gain them back
next, i'll do my school work... I SWEAR
okay... i try... hopefully...

you know what?
im hungry im hungry im hungry!
random.

2007-12-21T23:28:00.001+08:00

i have successfully jogged for 3 days
and imma so proud of myself
you know i actually dislike running
because its a boring activity
jus go rounds like an idiot
or running on the spot (threadmills)
really makes you like a retard at times
so i've been a retard and idiot
cant wait to burn those fats
not lose weight lah, for a leaner body
and my pebble-like abs!

i guess im going insane
a day without exercising
makes my heart feel so guilty
but this guilt makes you work harder
as long as i watch my strict diet
i guess everything's fine
and i really miss playing soccer
stupid rain
i want back my tan!
im dont wanna turn back fair
as thou imma some white faggot
cut this shit, come out sun!

2007-12-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Motorola sales promoter training was fun
you get to know people, learn new things
get a good pay, and good incentives
what more can i ask for?
thinking of changing your phone?
approach me.
i can talk the dead to alive and viceversa

and dont talk to me about christmas
it doesnt have a meaning to me
why are everybody celebrating jesus's birthday
why dont you guys celebrate mine
and make it a public holiday too
and i've got nobody impt to spend it with
i guess i'll jus go work then
money face or whatever you come up with
i could be least bothered
its purely because i hate money
its always create issues or problems
all roots of problem begins with money
dont tell me money isnt important
thats probably because YOU'RE BROKE

ps: im not in the right state of mind

2007-12-09T20:10:00.000+08:00

dad and i were having talks during dinner
discussing about what business is good
as the only way to earn big bucks is setting up your own business

me: so what business is good to set up?
dad: see yourself lah. base on research right.
me: mmm... nothing to invent leh.
dad: you so stupid can invent what?
me: then what you tell me.
dad: think you open your own food store lah.
me: why?
dad: cause you cant stop eating!
*mum laughing away*
me: *swearing*

hahahaha whats wrong with eating!?
when i was younger they complain i dont eat
now they complain i eat too much
when i was young they ask why i so skinny
as if they ill-treat me, never give food
now im eating good
and they always tease me
saying if i continue they'll go bankrupt
grrr. annonying parents.

TERENCEPOH PREPARING FOR DECEMBER WAR!

thank you nescafe HAHAHA!

2007-12-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

people in a relationship
tend to look at their lousy moments
and the time for the most vulnerable periods
love, makes and breaks people
peaks after peaks, i dont need love.
for i should throw my heart away

perfection doesnt come with love.
convince me, convince me.

2007-12-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

alright i've been busy lately
all thanks to the pressure by school
been failing quizzes and in need to buck up
for this mid semester exams!
its not like its the first time
come on you can do it again terencepoh!

cant wait for holiday
cant wait for christmas
cant wait for intense training
cant wait for chilling sessions
cant wait for the match of the year:
LIVERPOOL VS MANCHESTERUNITED

cant wait to run
cant wait to do abs training
cant wait to club again
cant wait to shop again
cant wait to tan again

and most importantly,
cant wait to meet my beloved.

2007-12-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

my all time favourite song
dedicated to the one being loved by me :]
Nickelback - Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
Cause you know, you know, you know

I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it allI'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
Cause you know, you know, you know

I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
So far away
(So far away)
Far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

All I wanted
I wanted you to stay
Cause I needed
I need to hear you say:
that I love you
(I love you)
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
(and I forgive you)
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me...never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me...never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me...never let me go

2007-12-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

i saw a very loving picture today
a grandfather piggyback his granddaughter
when was the last time i was piggyback-ed?

i know a new friend today in gym
and the very first question he posted was
"how come you everytime come alone?"
made me realise im quite a sadist

these 2 picture made me alone, lonely.
you dont know how it feels to eat alone
you dont know how it feels to walk alone
you dont know how it feels to shop alone
you dont know how it feels to gym alone
you dont know how it feels to tan alone
you dont know how it feels, to be always alone.
and the one i loathe most, eating alone
but i've been doing these for years, 7 years.
rather than being used to it, i guess im immune-d.
yes i need a companion
i should jus get a dog. HAA!
but its totally different thing, stupid.

can you piggyback me?
if not, im willing for the vice-versa.

2007-12-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

okay today i've came up with a bestest idea
siti wore the shirt that wrote

"I LOST MY NUMBER, CAN YOU GIVE ME YOURS?"

then i came up with my very own version

"I LOST MY VIRGINITY, CAN YOU GIVE ME YOURS?"
HAHAHA ISNT THIS ALOT BETTER!

2007-12-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

i'd tried to study a bit but bad luck falls aupon me
giving me a headache when i wanted to study
and i really cant do anything now, its killing me.
so i wasted another sunday doing nothing
its so sinful.
i ordered my supplements online and its so much cheaper i swear
almost half price of what i get from GNC

anyway it writes that WHEY PROTEIN contains Acesulfame-K

its a artificial sweetening agent

it actually have some unconfirmed research that is carcinogenic

which means it can actually cause cancer

so dont be suprised that if one day im diagnosed with cancer

dont tell me to stop taking them

its already to late to turn back

i've been consuming it for almost half a year

and i cant possibly return the goods i bought today

and theres no products that can provide the amount of protein

i believe if i were to die, theres lots of victims too anyway

so i couldnt be much bothered by it

for now, i will only continue to train hard and pray hard.

this christmas im gonna make a super long post

for people who has made an impact in my life

sooooooo stay tuned!

you asked whether do i seriously love you

but wasnt that the question im supposed to ask you instead?

if you were to ask me a million times again

the answer will still be the same, i do.

did we fall for each other, unknowingly?

2007-11-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

if you're wondering what to get terencepoh for this coming christmas, i only want this present. well i dont mind selling my body for this christmas present anyway HAHAHA KIDDING. jus look how gorgeous it looks! OHMYGOD THIS IS LOVE!

Giorgio Armani Samsung mobile!

while i was talking to my buddy, shengyoung, we talked about how i was in the past when he know me and the present. so i suddenly got the inspiration to blog, which is to make a comparison between when im 18 and 19.

18.

okay so i was into visual-kei (jap) when i was 18. you can call it gothic, emo, punk, whatever you want. i keep super long hair , use an hour to style them up, draw eyeliners, paint black nail polish - everything a visual-kei does. i was crazy about X-Japan at that time (still a fan now, who listens to their songs everyday. like, now while im blogging.) i swear i was tryin to keep my hair even longer, till it will reach my chest.

19.

then some girl name anzeal became my girlfriend. she gave my teenage life a new concept, a sporty one. i was training before i got to her anyway, jus that i didnt had that outlook. okay well, i really thank her for this. i changed from a visual-kei to what fauzi said, "topman-tic". which means i have a mature and class man look. so what was added to my latest life? 1, a nice bod. 2, a determined mind. 3, a healthy tanned skin. 4, a sporty outlook. 5, a new hairstyle. and i swear i was only 52kg when im 18. now im 65kg and im finally closer to that goal, 75kg. see that drastic change?

rather than dreaming about a rockstar who plays the electrical guitar like i do when i was 18. now i want to be in Men's Health cover man, for at least once in my life. and to be an officer cadet during my NS years is my near-coming goal. anyway whats with people nowadays, asking me to join modelling agency. the most unbelievable thing is, even my mum did.

so people, tell me which side of me you prefer? 18, or 19?

tell me the peak in my life has not arrived!

2007-11-28T20:36:00.001+08:00

its only now i realised
you were the right one for me
all along, all this time
but we messed it all up
we were the perfect match.
but nothing i do
can bring back the past
so i have a wish:
that we'll be lovers again,
in our next lives if that is what they call it...
only after this wrong life

i swear i wouldnt take your love for granted
anymore, no more...
i miss you.

2007-11-27T23:15:00.000+08:00

i think i need to look more in the mirror
what i see motivates me to work harder

i was told life is subjective
how true.
different people lead different life
i'll tell you im content with life now
of course i still seek for improvements

one should never compare life with others
it is yours, why do want to compare?
for instance, no one should compare results with me
you shouldnt be proud winning me anyway
you dont live my life
you have no idea how physically tired i am
try hitting the gym 3 times a week
and every session takes 2.5 hours non stop
carrying those stupid metal biscuits
so, stop. before i slap you hard

another example,
there was once i talked to jason
i told him gym + tanning + shopping = life
he told me im boring
and says he will die without gaming
yes he is definitely a gamer
who can stick with his com 24/7
but i would rather to end my life if its like that
so once again, it's too subjective
life; no definite unit, unmeasurable.

i have a sudden urge to do this now:
to award my most important womens in life LOL
(other than the 2 bitches [mum and sis] in my life)
and the award goes to... Melody and Ferlicia!

Melody: guess you know your name will be up here
like always, see until sian right
but tell you what, i cannot live without you HAHAHA
now that you know you are so bloody important
please live longer, you are only granted to die after me
so i guess i've to try harder feeding you water
if not sooner or later i'll lose a bestfriend, a soulmate.
if you're seeing this, go get a cup of PLAIN water
your cooperation is much appreciated. <3

Ferlicia: though we dont understand each other well
nor have we even met in life before
but its really a pleasure to know you
and you definitely add colours to my life
i seldom feel so comfortable talking to someone
thank you honey, heart you.

the theory on how i treat people?
easy.
it's jus the way how you treat me.

2007-11-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

warning: this is going to be a long post
let me start with a song lyrics

Will You Wait For Me

I need to talk with you again
Why did you go away
All that time together
This feels like yesterday
I never thought I'd see
A single day without you
The things we take for granted
We can sometimes lose

And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again?
Will I see you again...

Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
If you wait for me
And all the tears I cry
No matter how I try
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me
In heaven...

Do you remember how it was
When we never seemed to care
Days went by so quickly
Cause I thought you'd always be there
And it's hard to let you go
Though I know that I must try
I feel like I've been cheated
Cause we never said goodbye
And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again?
Will I see you again...

Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
If you wait for me (Won't you wait for me)
And all the tears I cry
No matter how I try
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me
In heaven...

Cause I miss you so
And I need to know
Will you wait for me?

'Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
If you wait for me (Say you'll wait for me)
And all the tears I cry (all the tears I cry)
No matter how I try (how I try)
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me

Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
If you wait for me...

i thought we started things very well
it was until yesterday when i found out something,
something that was so devastating
something that made me stare into space the whole day
something that made me ponder
something that made me feel, pain
but i swear yesterday was yesterday
and i certainly feel a lot better today
it was time that i lost to
perhaps it was fate, purely fate
to make us know each other
maybe mel's right, i jus want the chance
the chance to prove myself and her
i only felt wasted, not in love.
perhaps perhaps perhaps.
but i haven even got the chance,
to sing you that song, your song.
and i lost my motivations, all...

yesterday was definitely a sway day
not only to find out a truth i want to know least
but also, i saw somebody when i was down
her shocked face was the funniest face i've seen from her
i dont know how to react
so i didnt react at all
i wanted to say hi, but my sis would kill me if i do
baby, i wanna tell you you dont have to do so
its really not your fault
maybe i took our love for granted
it was certainly the sweetest love i ever received
but at the same time, the most painful love.
the love that reminds me all the pain
the love that reminds how lousy i was
the love that reminds me how vunerable i was
the love that made me lost 5kg in 2 weeks
the love that made me skipped training for a month
the love that made me cried like i never did before
the love that made me broke down
the love that almost made me fail my exams
the love that made me drink almost everyday
the love that i almost made me give up myself
the love that i never want again
you never fail to remind me i shouldnt love again
but see, everybody says im better off without you
i am happy, and you should be happy for me
i said as long as you're happy, im happy.
and i am truely, happy for you.
its been 4 months i last seen you
the last time before you did the runaway show
i only want to say - i missed you
and you have become my past tense
a history, that i want to remember
only the sweet memories, only the sweet memories...

last issue i want to mention, to passerby
thank you for visiting my blog
but your words are the least that i could be bothered
tell me is it a crime to praise myself?
tell me did the government state that law?
tell me what i praised about myself that i dont have?
i believe what i mentioned was facts
and you can actually choose not to read my blog
if it really makes you wanna puke
or you can come up to me face to face and tell me im disgusting
only if you have the guts
and only if you find yourself better than me
if not its all rubbish
tell you what, i love myself, even if i was ugly
be it inside or outside
if you're still not happy about it
why not look things at another point of view?
jus take it as im a pathetic soul
who lacks of self-esteem
and that i need to praise myself, jus lying to myself
everybody around are jus lying to me
does that makes you feel better?

remember: but i am only human.

2007-11-25T14:44:00.000+08:00

mel said mature guys should have dreams
and i do.

for once in my life, i want to be on the cover man on Men's Health
successfully graduate from TP ASAP
enter Officer Cadet School (OCS) to be an officer
to be a air steward and travel around the world
i actually wish to go enter a university, too.
and the job i want to be, an actor.
i can seriously act well okay! but i cant read scripts
nor can i act crying sences lah. hahaha.
but i dont mind becoming a teacher, too.
either teach physical education or science?
mmm well... maybe its more like wishes than dreams.

so whats with looks, height, body, money, brains
people says that i have got the whole package?
but i swear it doesnt bring me anywhere anyway.
thats why i hate myself at times...

2007-11-25T14:12:00.000+08:00

so i was guessing
whether it is too late
yes it is
yes it was
to say that,
i have a crush on you.

stab me hard on my heart
so i'll never fall again.

2007-11-25T13:16:00.001+08:00

next week's LIFE ROUTINE IS OUT!

monday - the start of PMIC lab, PMIC project submition, PMIC tutorial quiz
tuesday - submition of CSAS4 resume and cover letter, GYM
wednesday - IPT tutorial quiz
thursday - PIA quiz 1, BPHAR quiz too? staying back for Retail project discussion, followed by BPHAR project discussion
friday - Retail project discussion, GYM
and i swear i must go out on next SATURDAY! RAWRRR!

wahlao i wonder if life can get any worser
hello heroine are you there?
save me please im dying here hahaha
give me some motivation, please.

2007-11-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

was saturday a good day? no comments.

the good:
so i woke up with back muscle aches
due to the heavy weights on friday
and went gym at 830 this morning again
and i cant believe we took almost 4 hours!
must be those endless talkings! haha
i finally got a tan again
and i swear the sun was really sorching
but i still managed to sleep under the sun
almost had a headache due to dehydration

the bad:
i jus need to go out today, too bored
but apparently everybody are busy!
hongswee - study at home
zhiyoung - went NP to study
sweeshiong - girlfriend at his house
ernest - buffet with parents
mel - still at japan
ruoci - must be working
chuxian - out with xiaowei
jinyong - surely out with sabrina
weiliang - still at australia
FHF - all at school doing pmic
and so i called my sister
but shes at her boyfriend's house
so no pub activity today
was wondering should i call jeremy to club
but lazy to go there without my sister
GRRR SO BORED! STAB ME

some randoms:
today when i was in the toilet at the pool
and while i was waiting for ernest to change
there was this 30-odd year old faggot
he was changed and was preparing to go
and when he saw me, he keeps staring at me
(i know i got a nice figure HAHAHA)
but i swear hes totally a faggot
i entered cubicle 6, he entered 7
then i realised i didnt bring in my towel
so i went out again, and he went out too
then i entered 7, he entered 8
LIKE HELLO WERENT YOU SUPPOSED TO GO ALR?
i was wondering if he was taking snap shots
but i didnt see much movements
so i dont know what he was trying to do
i'll kick his balls next time if i see him again!

on the happier side:
Liverpool thrashed Newcastle 3-0!
wear Liverpool jersey on monday!
but shit, got lab!
forget about it then

Bleeding Love - stole this song from someone's blog
trying hard not the hear
but they talk so loud
their piercing sounds fill my ears
try to fill me with doubt
yet i know that the goal
is to keep me from falling
but nothing's greater
than the rush that comes with your embrace
and in this world of loneliness
i see your face
yet everyone around me
thinking that im going crazy, maybe, maybe
but i dont care what they say
im in love with you
they try to pull me away
but they dont know the truth
my heart's crippled by the vein
that i keep on closing
you cut me open and i...

im here to win your heart and soul,
that's my goal.
the purpose is to show you what love is,
the love you have been long waiting for.
and all i need is a chance, just one.

2007-11-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

21/11 - Blood Donation Drive. Joyce, Siti, Chongseng (inside), my bitch and his bitch23/11 - green pink pink green. Joyce, Siti, thehottestguyonearth, and my buddy young. how unglam. retail management lecture sucks. and im not wearing a tube bra, just for your information.

2007-11-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

okay jus when i thought friday would be beautiful.
it turns out to be the louiest day of the week!
boring PIA lab makes me insane
till the extend that i was playing with the tissues
and retail lec was as boring as ever
with the lecturer making jokes that young and i wont laugh
we jus look at each other with that huh? face
and the worst of the day happens to be after school!
totally pissed off with pmic.
AND I HAD A BAD HEADACHE! :(((

and i jus killed ANOTHER cockroach
where do they come from uh. RETARDS
this time one worse, it flies!
but still, finish it with one blow
HELLO COCKROACH I DONT GO GYM FOR NOTHING
IM YOUR FATAL ENEMY
SO STOP APPEARING IN MY HOUSE!
i think im more retarded, as if they can read my blog

but gym was lovely today
completed everything within 2 hours
and i did my squads!
wanna make my buttock firm-er hehe
and i increased the weights!
for my back and thighs
i wanna train harder, till 80kg
so i can piggyback my girlfriend whenever she wants
and making sure its comfortable
that she can even sleep! HAHA
okay i dont have a girlfriend

at times i jus want a person who
...accompany me for sentosa trips
...accompany me for meals
...accompany me when im down
...accompany me when im happy
...accompany me for shoppings
...accompany me when im sick
...bitch at others together
...slaps me when i deserve it HAHA
...hugs me when i need it badly
...kisses me to show love
...gives me surprises
...sing to me
...piggybacks me
...do the stupidest thing in life together
...laughs at my stupid jokes
...asks me not to show my short-temper
...tells me im okay when im not
...talk to me till i sleep
...appreciates me
...tells me that she loves me
...let me love her
...doesnt do the RUNAWAY show
...saves me from the past
...keeps our love till the hair turns all grey

...random

2007-11-22T22:49:00.001+08:00

okay the horrible week is almost over
we've survived through again
so it certainly makes us stronger
since what cant kill us only makes us stronger
okay tomorrow's the last
and im readyyy
we are ready, we are ready
to be the best that we can be
over land, on the sea, and in the air
we are the NC, we are the NC, we are the NCC~
crappppppp.
friday...! tell me it's love!
TIME FOR SOME ROCK AND ROLL BABY!

okay i cant figure it out why
im losing my appetite these days
i thought it was butterflies always
maybe im jus too stressed to eat
shittttttt i dont wanna lose weight!
and i bought the topman shirt!
okay i guess i got the wrong size.
and i wanna hit the gym soon and fast
i feel so unhealthy, i need to stress-relieve!

on a lighter note,
i really love how things are going
im not expecting much,
as the higher it is, the higher the disappointment
we'll jus live with it
tell me its great, honey.

2007-11-21T19:48:00.000+08:00

That's My Goal

You know where I've come from,
You know my story,
You know why I'm standing here...
Tonight,
Please don't go,
Don't be in a hurry,
I'm here to make it clear,
Make it right,

Well I know I've acted foolish,
But I promise you no more,
I've finally found that something
Worth reaching for,

I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to lie to you,
I'm here to say I'm ready,
That I've finally thought it through,
I'm not here to let you're love go,
I'm not giving up oh no,
I'm here to win your heart and soul,
That's my goal.

Please don't go,
You know that I need you,
I can't breath without you,
Live without you,
Be without you,
Well I know I've acted foolish,
But I promise you no more,

I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to lie to you,
I'm here to say I'm ready,
That I've finally thought it through,
I'm not here to let you're love go,
I'm not giving up oh no,
I'm here to win your heart and soul,
Yes I'm here to win your heart and soul,
That's my goal....

2007-11-21T18:47:00.000+08:00

:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
did something i never did before again today
and thank god it was successful.

alright i skipped that ISPE trip today
and went shopping with Jeremy
we chatted, bitched, laughed, and he emo lol
okay we both a skinny jeans
he bought black and i bought ELECTRIC BLUE
OH MY GOD... TIREDDD AHHH LOL

then we went raffles city and shop
i bought a cute watch!
and sadistic day we had budget tea break today
hahahaha so funny
and that fat guy who sneeze WAS SO DISGUSTING
the overflow mucus dropped on his pants EWWW
then we went marina square
shop and shop and shop
that are sooo many things i wanna buy!
okay im so gonna buy...
the shirt from riverisland (120)
the pants from riverisland (100)
the shoes from zara (170)
the shirt from topman (83)
and the shoes from pedro (forgot how much)
would any kind soul donate me some money?
and it was definitely a enjoyable trip!
thou something spoilt his mood

2007-11-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

one word, tired.
after the rushing to school early in the morning,
the as ever boring csas4, and gym...
totally burn out,
now imma like chao-ta.

okay im so proud of myself jus now
I KILLED A COCKROACH!
when i walked out of the bathroom
and saw a cockroach on the floor
okay the first thing i did was... scream
"WAHHHHH! C*!" and flee
but on second thoughts i went to take newspaper
and smack the shit on it
smack that. all on the floor
smack that. give me some more
smack that. till you get sore
SMACK THAT. OH-OOOH!
crappppppp.
and one blow of course he die already lah
"jus look at my matching vipes"
i remembered i killed a cockroach
which i hit too hard on it
all its juices or fluids (whatever you call that)
spilled all around the floor, GROSS.

okay and i throw it into the toilet bowl
and prayed for him before he goes down
for the shit and urine feast (probably he enjoys it)
by saying "bye mother****er!"
okay there he goes. byeee!
and i felt so... mmm whats that word? satifised?
cause i always kill but never clear!
or at times i'll jus order by dad to CHARGEEE!
so i feel like imma grown-up! HAHAHA

THE DAY IS TOMORROW.

2007-11-19T19:49:00.000+08:00

I'd Rather

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine.

i dont wanna be in love again
unless it's you
because im totally obsessed with you
you're the reason
and i'll wait for you, i'll wait for you.

2007-11-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

please give me a new source of motivation, somebody
imma afraid one day i cant take this anymore
so somebody grab me before i fall
the schedule is getting rather hectic
and im thinking of taking a part-time job
need to earn some bucks for my driving stuffs
and i wanna buy a car, please

dad is against of my idea of joining OCS
i want to fulfill the dream that didnt work in the past
to be an officer.
how about being a commando officer? haa
sounds crazy thou
and yes i need that good pay of being an officer during NS
so i can save and drive a car
i seriously think its an disadvantage to guys who dont drive
i bet some girls always choose a guy who drives
so they say that guys are superficial
aint girls materialistic? random.

PROJECTS
ASSIGNMENTS
QUIZZES
GYM
AND SOON, WORK?
i beg for 48hours a day
give me some time to jus look at her?

i know im blogging too much today.
forgive me
be my motivation, please?

2007-11-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

pardon for my childish behaviour
emotions jus got over me
but now, it's all over :)

sunday, a total random day.
chatted with eugene on msn this morning
then suddenly i received a sms
never expect it will be ruoci
working at compasspoint
so we met for lunch
and we eat and talk and shop
basically jus catch up lah
and i bet she loves my breast
keep touching
and the most random thing is
i met eugene on the bus

okay i veryyyyy long never see them already
so it feels kinda good to see them again
especially ruoci cause i've been bugging her
someone's got a boyfriend uh! HAHA
and im talking to mel now
feels like im back to 4 years time?
time really flies... sure it does.

2007-11-18T11:56:00.000+08:00

so i only slept at like 530
and to wake up at 730
i jus couldnt sleep
im feeling how you're feeling
the pain, the agony.

i rather my heart get broken again
than never to been in love again

people only remember the sad days of it
what about the sweet part of those days?
so sweet that you thought you got diabetes?
even ants are crawling around you... HAHA

that i just want you to know
i found the reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason, is you...

whatever others say doesnt matter
now what comes first is, to mend your broken heart.
even if it takes to break my heart, again.

2007-11-18T03:21:00.000+08:00

i jus cant seem to fall asleep
my muscles needs it but i dont feel like
emotions got over me again
what a lonely night

i mend your broken heart
but you broke mine instead
tell me what did i do to deserve this?
was it based on your physics calculation?
i guess everything had to have a balance, isnt it?
so a broken heart have to exchange for a mended one
i had it broken twice, stop this.
but thank you cause im living fucking well now
i do anything what i want now

good life. life's good. imma lovin' it.

crucify my love, if my love is blind.
somebody knock me out to put to sleep
i dont wanna think anymore
or somebody jus talk to me
but there aint anybody alive now

why am i still holding back my tears
in this loneliness theres nothing to fear

i cant remember the last time i shred a tear.
but i dropped one or two just
this pain is devastating
am i able to mend that broken heart of hers
when i cant even find the pieces of my heart

random. emo.
signing out,
yours truely.

2007-11-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

i just want monday to come soon.
as soon as possible.
and there's only one reason which all know :)

2007-11-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

Temasek Polytechnic Campus Care Network Day
let the photos do the talking.
these photos are by sequence...

so firstly jeremy initiated to support my booth by buying my class brownies. so we met around 12 and wander around. only to found out that my class's booth hasnt set up yet. so we went to boy-and-girl-watching and bitching around people and things. suddenly jinyong popped outta nowhere, vincent also tagged along. i swear they are my buddies, money is always secondary, so they are forced to buy my brownies. okay i love you guys. vincent's a nice chap too, a very quiet one thou. then we walked around bitching at others.

there are all kind of sales, clothes, food, drinks and even photo-taking with dogs as a sale. see there are serbian husky, damnnn huge. i tell you they look pretty but damn scary. while jeremy was happily playing with small dogs that people are carrying around (like shouting "cat! cat! cat!" to them), there are 2 husky behind him. to his horror he didnt realise until they are really like behind him, he was freaking shocked that he RUN AND SCREAM so loud that everybody looked at us. of course everybody was laughing also. damn paiseh i tell you. jinyong and i laughed our asses off, really.

then when we walked back to engineering school to support jinyong's booth, the husky were behind again. i touched one of their head, eee not nice to touch. HAHAHA. and there's a malay girl who was more drama than jeremy, she RAN, SCREAMED AND CRIED aupon seeing the huskys. and jeremy laughed like crazy, even pointing at her laughing so loud and evil-ly, okay thats so like him.

this photo shows my chemicalengineering buddies! weijun kahmeng, edwin, minghong, kevin, desmond, short of chongseng only. no idea where was my class's booth, i decided to look for edwin, know they are in a lecture threate. their idea of sales was gaming, $1 per game of Pro Evolution 2008, with the winner in loser out. so i jus went there and slack loh, aircon for a hot weather leh! well, the concept was quite good. because its only profit, no capital. while i was inside the lecture threate slacking, there are a bunch of girls from i-dont-know-where, shouting so loudly for nothing (people are shouting at the gamers either for goals or mistakes), those girls really nothing also shout. and my experience tells me that they want to know me, i swear i was right.

okay theres not the main story of the day, it is...

i bought 26 items from her jus to get to know her name! well, money's well spent! HAHAHA

look at the fruit custards and peanuts... HOW TO FINISH!?

the first time i approached a girl face to face after 19 years of life - 16 November 2007.

2007-11-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

you're way too beautiful girl
that's why it'll never work

2007-11-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

that was not a obsession, jus serves as motivation

jus if you're asking how's my training progression. my abs still not yet pebble like. i wanna get it till it's like those reflex-foot therapy pebbles which those elderly walk on. i make sure when people are stepping on my abs, it makes them go "OUCH! OUCH! OUCH!" HAHAHA. PEBBLE-LIKE ABS. one day, soon. if people ask me one day which is my most valuable/expensive of me, without a doubt the answer would be the muscles hahaha. jus calculate the money used on gym sessions, whey protein and creatine, not forgetting the precious time spent. when you're happily sleeping(especially saturdays) im torturing myself in the gym taking those "metal and plastic biscuits". (i deserve some hardworking recognition) HAA!

2007-11-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

first thing first, I WANNA MAKE A VERY BIG ANNONUNCEMENT THAT THERE IS A TAGBOARD IN MY BLOG. people like yanhui didnt even know. okay so now things are cleared, please leave a tag to tell me that you've been to my blog? leave your url if you want to me to link you? thanks, much love. and i have people complaining that the font is too small for reading, so imma enlarging it. sorry for any inconvenience caused!

next, i broke my donald duck mug today ;( oh man im so sorry mel. it was purely an accident. but well, it is still usable and im will still use haa.

donald duck's mouth becomes the dust pan. maybe he wants to kiss me

putting on the shades...
DONE! cool not? haa.

well didnt upload this because its in my phone. alright i kinda love this shades thou AX is not very class. i like the name. okay thats not the point. i almost forgot no photographs are allowed and was told off by the salesman or promoter, anything you wanna name it. but hey, free modelling and free advertising in my blog leh!

today im jus gonna be a bitch
firstly, i hate people who waste my time. if you have plans already, please do tell me before hand if not i'll jus get pissed off. dont be selfish, if you dont have a life, dont forget that others do, and more importantly, I DO.

secondly, i hope some people dont get obsessed with things that you forget about the important things in your life. there's only one life, GO GET IT.

thirdly, i hope some fat people in gym, wake up their bloody idea that they are not BIG SIZE but fat. reminds me of that fat guy thinking that he's fit in TP. when you can carry weights heavier than others, it doesnt mean that you're fit, it's purely because that you have heavier body mass. DAMN.

finally, i hope some people realise that blasting their techno songs in their mp3 isnt cool, not at all. i jus met one blasting away with that stupid nerd look and i seriously think that he thought he's cool. DOPES.

and jeremy's right. our efforts always trying to make gatherings are taken for granted. do you even know how tiring it is jus to inform everybody? why not you guys try? dont come begging us to organise any. bitches. and yes, try giving smarter excuses when you can't make it. dont give excuses that make yourself look dumb.

i really think that people around me are getting increasingly selfish. i dont know what happened or why things become like this. perhaps dad's right. he say when people grow up, they start to have their own stuffs to be busy with (eg. family). aiya i dont know what im talking. random.

dad and mum are real cute. yes mum's back and dad is like happily pestering and disturbing her. im saved haa. and i was there when dad di siao mum. he bought the green colour thing call what ohneh-ohneh and my dad calls it donut. so when he buys it (almost everyday), he will ask my mum "eh bui, ai jia donut mai?" and i thought my dad really bought donuts and i wanted to scold him. then my mum give the -.- face to him and told me that its ohneh-ohneh. then dad continue by saying that he always order it by telling the boss "2 donuts and bla bla" cant believe the boss actually understand his language -_-" but it was really funny - the way they talked. and im relieved that mum's back.

the reason that i said i wanted to scold my dad is because i hate donuts. they are awful, and jus made up of flour(how stupid). most importantly, donuts are ranked number three as a cancer causing agent due to fried starch. cant believe the donut trend is increasing like as if there's free food. and yet people are queueing for it(bet they dont know they are paying to get cancer) cool to die young? eat more donuts.

oh i almost forgot to say this. last night i dreamt. mum told me i was giggling/laughing/smiling ALL THE WAY im sleeping. scary. HAHHA. i cant really recall what was the dream but i actually know i was giggling and laughing and smiling throughout the whole night. sweet. how about tonight too? :D

2007-11-12T23:21:00.000+08:00

omfg this is damn stress. i didnt realise i have to hand in my pharmaceutical microbiology(pmic) project proposal by thursday! and there is quiz on wednesday. and i have gym tomorrow. and there are another projects. projects quizzes projects quizzes projects quizzes. sickening, and im going bonkers! i told you im really damn busy. shit this. but im taking a short break from this hectic schedule. and and and! shows my work is endless!

oh well, like i said saturday i went for community service at this haw par villa. totally stupid. waste of my precious time. only makes me hate kids more and more. we're supposed to take care of children, with the ratio of 2:1 (adult:kids). at first, they appear to be cute, innocent. jus after we hang out for around 30minutes... they shown all their leopard spots! wahlao! angels to monsters. and rude i must say. i wont blame them for being hyper because its jus the nature of kids. ah yes, i must admit that i almost slapped the little girl for twisting my finger like it almost broke(of course i didnt did it, jus exaggerating). jus when i was about to blow my top, mel talked to me this morning before i go for the trip asking me not to lose my temper, i swear it was the first thing that crossed my mind. so even when i almost wanted to kill her, i kept my cool and talked to her nicely though she was kinda afraid to see what happened to my finger also. i tell you my finger was almost twisted and fortunately it didnt break(im serious). okay so the girl must thank her saviour, melody chong. the hardworking me went gym straight after the tired shit with the 3 faggots(haa). tired-ness.

sunday - i cant explain the feeling. i was so frustrated. time was jus not enough. i really need 48 hours a day(some time for me to dream of her please) woke up at late morning around 11 and had my haircut at noon then had lunch with zhiyoung. went back home and sleep again, i didnt know why im so tired. when i woke up i dont know what to do - to prepare for the wedding dinner or do my studying. so i spent an hour frustrated about these and ended up doing none. until when its around 430 i decided to dress up, like finally. despite being so time-tighted, my so lovely cousin was late for almost an hour, making me wait alone at yishun ALONE like some idiot. i almost wanted to bury her alive. ah yes, the wedding i attended was a friend i knew when i was 14, working colleague, Regina Chuah. ah well, my first friend who got married! the relationship was like 8 years, meaning they were together when they are 14. this is like WOW i must say. 8 bloody yearssssssss leh! record breaking like ferlicia said, isnt it. okay if regina you happen to read this, best wishes again okay. have a baby soon! it's certainly feels weird for me that my friend is married. oh my.

2007-11-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

at times i still miss you. there are jus things that triggers my mind. memories so deep, too deep. all i want to say is, i miss you. and everyday i have to encourage myself to keep going, to move along. but when the old doesnt go, the new doesnt come.

there was once siti asked me who is my bestfriend. i named quite a number of them. but if i could only name a best friend(with a lot of considerations and thinking), it would definitely be mel, without a doubt. the best feeling on earth is to feel that your presense to a person or even to the world is important(which mel did even though shes away in japan). thanks honey, i love you. i swear i'll go japan this coming april if i successfully have the money. <3

random. i dont know why i saying these. maybe jus too tired. i'll blog tomorrow when i have the time, hopefully. been very busy these days. stay tuned! oh oh oh! and tomorrow's mondayyy! WOOHOO!

2007-11-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

seeing double. cool adverse effect eh.

siti and i. she's a malay eh, dont feed her pork.

FHF short of PHUA SHENG YOUNG

my shit-head-game with fauzi! does it shows 1 2 3 4? HAA.

and i didnt know i look so tall and big HAHA

my daily dosage of my favourite MANGO-SORBET!

alright i tell you today's PIA is crap. fancy doing things we did before and call it revising our practical skills. and that eftian teacher speaking simply sucks. you have to multitask to understand what he's teaching. you have to translate his english in your brain and read the sentence yourself and then you understand it yourself by reading virtually in your brain. but well i wonder why i didn't fall asleep like i always do, was my very first time that i pay attention to my laboratory. crappppppp.

i guess somebody skipped all her lectures today. didn't see her in school at all despite all the "campings" around. haa. kinda disappointed. today was supposed to be the day! okay sooo disappointed. i even camped after retail management lecture in the hope that i could see her. ahhh well...

then off we went, all the way to airport, jus to have lunch. popeye chicken! mmm well, its definitely better than KFC... thou i like KFC's chicken spice, hot and spicy i mean. first time the 6 of us went out together. but in the end shengyoung has to leave to meet meiping. soon after lunch we headed to town. eat-walk-shop-crap, all the rubbish. wahlao so many hot girls! (and guys too) WOOHOO! HAHHAHAA

tomorrow there's community service... can you imagine terencepohweekiat doing community service? I LOVE IT SO MUCH CAN! im a very kind soul okay, i volunteer myself! (like real) all thanks to fulfill the APEL2 requirement. but well, taking care of children... mmm. that kid better pray hard HAHAHA. okay lah i love kids, not too mischievous one please. preferably cute one can? it gonna kill dude, 930 to 330 and not providing lunch? how can you treat that to a bodybuilder? haa. good luck terencepoh! gym tomorrow after community service!

hope monday comes soon, jus to see you again.

2007-11-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

well, the first topic will be about my dad again. most people find my dad interesting, WHICH I DONT THINK SO. yesterday he said he wanna get bintan ticket from my sister (my sister works at my uncle's travel agency) and he told us that he's going bintan on deepavali to find his mistress and wanna make babies because we look unreliable and unfilial. haha he and his craps. dont ask whether does he have a mistress or not, i have total faith with my father (but well i wont be suprised if one day he pops out with his mistress or a son or two haha)

today's so fun dudes. early in the morning gym with 4 other guys. and hongswee was like promoted to "instructor" with sweeshiong being his mentee HAHA. this is funny. ah well and like always, we had 2 chickens today because there's an additional mouth added. i bet ernest is really have phobia with chickens. for people who dont understand, its our standard routine to eat the whole chicken after gym. so 2 chickens for 5 mens... i hope you understand. lol. and yes chuxian's a pig. fancy still sleeping at noon time!

you know what? the sun's exist for me can. jus after lunch the sun popped out for my sunbathing session! im feeling lucky. everytime i want the sun, it's there. oh man, LOVE! like finally i had my tan again. im NOT going back to those fair skin days, i swear i was fairer than a white! and that's fuglyyyyy.

tomorrow's time for school again! I CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW YOU KNOW. the anticipation the anticipation the anticipation is so bloody strong! HAHAHA. like the first time in all my time in poly so far. and tomorrow's outing with FHF. and i swear everybody's gonna be so HOT. of course im the hottest.

your smile makes my heart melts.

2007-11-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

anyway i think i've become crazy till the point of obsessed, like totally. shouldnt further elaborate why... hohoho. that's so much secret i cannot say out HAHA

ah yes, to continue about yesterday's incident, my dad again invite me to sleep with him! i rejected like NOOOOOOO! then when i woke up for the toilet i saw him sleeping on the floor like some lonely old man haha. hey, but no, im still not going to sleep with him! hahaha

okay today was really cold, freezing. and today everywhere i went was air-conned lah. damn freaky cold. bus-lecture-canteen-lecture-tutorial-bus. ALL AIR-CONNED! thank god i wore a scarf to school today. everybody was looking at me today. ah well, everyday's a fashion show lah. im trying to par with her what HAHA! oh heavenly! HEHE HAHA HOHO. im motivated to go school everyday! thanks eh! I LOVE SCHOOL!

2007-11-06T20:35:00.000+08:00

i swear my dad's a faggot haha! last night he INVITED me to his room to sleep with him with the reason that he switched on the air-con. i rejected his nice offer because i didn't want to sleep with him! after all the pestering, i gave up and sleep together with him on the same bed! (oh i almot forgot to say that my mum went taiwan) worse still, he even pester my sister to sleep together! wahlao! my dad damn cute can hahaha. ahhh well, so he's damn idiotic. before i agree to sleep together with him (because i pity that he's lonely), i told him

terence: eh daddy you better dont anyhow touch me ah
dad: HEH HEH HEH...
terence: -_-"

okay he didnt molest his own son. but i couldnt really sleep well beside him. at times he accidentally hit onto me, and at moments of sudden wake, i turn and saw his face so close to mine. oh my, horrible! no more tonight! PEACE! my dad's jus a an ass. fancy talking about how he will enjoy when mum's not around, on the other hand he keeps disturbing my sister and i. and me being the main victim because jasmine's not around most of the time. what more can i say but to say, I LOVE YOU DAD! hahaha

okay my sister is just a lazy bum. jus before i wanted to fry my vegetables an hour ago i realised the frying pan wasnt washed... since sunday when andy stayed overnight. GROSSSSS! then i wonder how she fry eggs till the pan becomes black? gross i tell you. urggggg how can girls not do household chores!? neither she can cook! and she even questioned whether can i make it to cook fried rice last sunday. by the way, i did a good job okay! dad finish it all! okay please dont kill me if you happened to read my blog, i love you still! but the pan was really disgusting. i teach you how to cook okay! hahaha

and i burnt my index finger when i accidentally touched the hot part of the frying pan. damn. luckily i used ice and it didnt swell or anything.
<3!

2007-11-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

amazed? im back blogging. hello fans you must have missed me! well i seriously cannot remember my old blog's username and password, so forget about it. credits to MEL and once again to chuxian, who both helped me to do this blog (yes i didn't lay a finger on this) obviously my job is jus to blog haa. well this should be the virgin post! thank god its not bleeding.

alright in a nutshell school's kinda fun currently but i can feel the heat is getting closer soon. okay time for hell. i swear im so gonna put up my gpa, hopefully. and i swear i wont give up gym trainings anymore for anybody. life's great and im lovin' it.

hey isnt this blogskin jus so great? look its Matsumoto Hideto featured desu yo! and the heading written on the skin hits with my blog's url. damn cool. ohhh myyy love it to bits and pieces

today's horoscope:
The level of romance in your life is about to go up, up, up! Anything is possible.

random.